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Last month I wrote about Writers and Moods. I didn’t realize I was repeating myself. Only in reading the comments did I pull  this old post out of my memory. It was over a year old, and boy, have things changed since then.

Back then I was just writing for fun. Back then, I hadn’t yet finished a novel. I hadn’t published anything. I hadn’t made a cent off my work. And I was a hell of a lot more optimistic.

In the last year, while publishing, and eventually quitting my job to do this full time, I’ve learned a few things from writing:

It’s hard. Putting words on paper is a challenge as it is, but that’s only the beginning. Putting those words in the right order is the real hard part.

I try to remind myself that I have the best job on earth. I get up when I want. I take lunch when I want. I take breaks when I want. Most importantly, I write whenever and whatever the hell I want. And it is all the result of putting writing first – putting producing stories at the absolute, #1, non-negotiable priority.

So I wonder if I would go back.

If I could – which I can because the optimism and misery live in my own damn brain – would I go back to the realistic, but mildly optimistic self of last year? Could I make the conscious choice to take care of my self first and my work second?

I don’t know.

And there’s the cliche again. Addicted to mystery. Do I secretly crave the gloom and doom of my current mindset? Really, really honestly… if I could go back, would I?

Last year’s post, I knew that writing was miserable. But did I know it was addicting?

9 Responses to “Writers and Mood (2)”

  1. Travis McCrea

    I think it’s silly to think about “going back”, you can’t… I know this is a frequent point of contention between us, but I strongly feel that trying to think about things you can’t affect or can’t know the answer to is a waste of your precious brain power.

    You look at your writing and yourself as two separate entities, but if you recognize that you are your writing and that putting your writing first is putting yourself first, I think it should make this whole thing easier to comprehend.

    • aeliusblythe

      “…if you recognize that you are your writing and that putting your writing first is putting yourself first…”

      That’s a nice way of looking at it…. I WANT to see things that way. Somehow it’s hard to put the perspective in to practice :-(

  2. Lafemmeroar

    Your post sums up the inner-workings of a writer. For me it can be horrid, but it is addicting. It’s the self-expression through fiction that really attracts me about writing. I think it’s because it’s a way to hide and reveal at the same time … oxymoronic I know, but it is what it is. Tweeting this now.

    • aeliusblythe

      …hide and reveal at the same time…

      Yeah, I think that’s the truth. I know I for one am not exactly a super suave communicator – at least IRL. But in fiction, I can say what I want. It’s the best (and possibly only) way I can communicate, so it’s the way I have to communicate. It more like a compulsion, something you’re subject to rather than something you just want to do…..

    • aeliusblythe

      Yeah, it IS the best. I remind myself every day that I am VERY lucky to be able to take the time to do this. I think even with the miserable times, nothing beats that freedom.

  3. Jonathan Cassidy

    This is why I work where someone else does the worrying about how to pay for it!


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